the fingers are weak… but the mind is willing

Yes yes yes… I’ve been back to the road of normalcy for quite a fair bit now. From my crazy and over the board working like a madman days at DraftFCB  to a more manageable level, I’ve still consistently ignore my blog. Bringing myself to blog for the sake of just voicing out my mind has proven hard to attend to that initially speculated. I have never been very good at translating my thoughts unto text unless I really need to get a point across to a person or situation. Using my skills as purely a recreational tool has proven to be futile in my finger’s view. However I will plod along and see how much more of this I will endure. Actually I do have a lot I would wanna say… I keep saying… boy I should talk about this in my blog just to fuck things up for the sake of well… muckin’ around. But once I sit down in front of the com…. I’m like… lazy la… I rather check out stuff for work or see what old friends I can discover or be discovered from facebook.

Besides, my life ain’t exactly full of innerestin’ stuff to talk about la. Come on…I’m sure more of you are sick of me gushing over my adorable son already. All I do here is tell  everyone got new pix of Shane… which reminds me I got a load of new ones I haven’t touched up and shit… damn… another tedious thing to do. I just find more interesting stuff to do with my time than put up pix or talk to myself in a fuckin’ blog. It’s like digital wanking… like I have to gratify myself on a blog or talk about what the fuck happens 2 me… tiu… lazy la… even this posting is a waste of space n time. But nevermind… need to be part of the culture to understand the market further… yadda yadda yadda self convincing shit.

Ok just to update you pple… yeah fuck… even in my hiatus I got hits… WTF?! Nothing to read here la wanker… see for wat. I quit my job end of September coz I had enuf la… work me like a dog and the politics… nip in the bud my ass… they bud nippers are the politic players… full of shit I tell you. But nevermind… it’s a game I will never understand or would even want to understand. Lining pockets is not something honorable I want to be part of. Me and my fuckin’ principles again… always making me get in trouble. I don’t play ball so I’m not on anyone’s side. Keeping as a neutral party is really harder than I thought. I’m too opinionated to not shove pple my views. So before I see more assholes getting their share of money they do not deserve I want out of that world. Figures why I’m still poor as shit and always looking of means to make more money to support the family… but only the legal n honorable way of coz.

Anyways in 6 hours of resigning from draft, I get a call from a company saying that they want me on board. This was the company that I was hoping to join from the slew of interviews I went for even. So it was a great sign to me that I did the right thing by leaving draft. I had a few other offers but it was back to the same shit hole world of agencies which was very reluctant to go back into if possible. However if come to the crunch I was thinking no choice for the sake of the family I might have to take the bullet. Luckily I didn’t have to and I found a place I actually like the people far more. Yes I made some friends at draft too and they are nice people but some are just so differently from what I want to be part of. What is the point of earning tons of money but end of the day you’re wondering when the next person’s going to stab you in the back to get ahead. Sorry la I’ve worked in a world where we all have each other’s back not stabbing it.

Enough trashing my ex company la… it had its moments… some really interesting projects but ultimately I saw a finite lifespan for the kind of things they were doing there. So I’m back to the total web environment and likeminded people. Sorry for borrowing the term but “I’m lovin’ it!” Please check out my new co’s website in my blogroll. They even spoke about my interview with them on their blog site. It’s nice to know that in this world there are pple who actually value family time like I do. I know everyone is saying careful… don’t let your guard down just yet. The world is a vicious place and all that shit. Then again I’ve always looked at the good side of things first till they prove me wrong. Why should I be any different now? I like how warm n welcoming everyone is… ok… mebbe not all la.. we’ve got some quiet ones which get overshadowed by my noisy and nosy personality like some *ahem* person who stalks my blog recently who works with me. LOL u know who you are… go 2 wife’s blog even… dahsyat betul. But this is exactly the environment I thrive in… being able to know them personally.. then seeing how I can work with them… then  we can do small but great things together.

Who gives a fuck that I launch a campaign that cost 10s of millions of ringgit. You’re only measured by the last campaign you did. So I rather not have the fake pat on the back but genuine people who does a job becoz it’s a job and then be able to hang out and talk about anything but work… this world has more to offer besides just well… work. I intend to explore that with my new team and who knows where it will take me… but at least here… I  can actually say I see a future far brighter and more positive than where I came from. We’re not perfect by far… but tell me an organization that is and I’ll tell you PR is behind it. Till my next lengthy and no point post… keep it real … real balanced.