Shane gets 1st official disciplining

Everyone on this planet knows that i love my son like nothing else in this world. So it wasn’t easy for me to finally give my son the first official full-scale disciplining act.

Shane was being his usual naughty self that i tolerated. He has a bad habit of throwing or beating things after i have given him a verbal display of disapproval. Like for instance i tell him not to touch mommy’s handbag strap, he will go and start wacking the strap or if i tell him he cannot play with the car keys he will throw them forcefully to the floor.

Well last night i disallowed him from touching the vacuum cleaner hose in my computer room. So happen he was holding on to our dvd remote control because mommy couldn’t hide if from him fast enough and taking it away from him would only cause him 2 go into a tantrum. So i let him have the remote control for awhile. But him touching the vacuum cleaner hose was a  big no no. Naturally him not getting his way cause him 2 start on his usual tantrum run. However seeing as he had the remote control with him he decided to throw it very hard to the ground which basically cause the remote to almost split apart. It also caused the thing to chip somewhat on a few sides.

Shane knew he was in trouble… so his usual reaction is say oh… ohh…. oh…  kinda like masking his wrong doing by acknowledging it was a mistake of sorts. This time however i  was mad coz he has done this once to many times. So i raised my voice n scolded him. Straight away he knelt down on the ground looking down and making a sad face. But i wasn’t going to let if off that easily. After a few more thunderous voices of disapproval i smacked his hands. And that is when he started shaking in fear. He was crying so badly and shaking from the sudden onslaught of both verbal and physical barrage. Mind you i only slapped the hand a bit… not soft… but hard enough to hurt the fella a bit. He deserved every bit of it. He wanted me to manja him but i refused and gave a firm NO! to him…  naturally he went running to mommy and i told her not to let him manja her. I do not want to raise a spoilt brat who thinks he can just do whatever the hell he wants to and get away with it. After awhile more of showing my disgust at what he did, i think he did really feel remorse. He didn’t dare throw his usual tantrums. He was very timid and dare not even  squirm around the floor like he use 2 when he throws his tantrums. It was actually amazing to see how much he was comprehending at 16months. It might be a normal thing but seeing my son develop this kinda comprehension will never cease to amaze me.

So after what felt like an eternity of letting him feel what happens when you are naughty, i spread out my arms to show that i will carry him. I have never seen him scramble to be in my arms so fast before. He grabbed on to me and laid his head still on my right shoulder and didn’t move for quite awhile. Didn’t even dare look at me or mommy. Mommy was now her turn to scold the little monster. He dare not look at mommy at all. After carrying him for quite awhile i told Audrey to make him milk at put him 2 sleep.

Thru-out the whole ordeal… i think shane might’ve been disciplined but i think we as parents were also tortured with the fact that i had to give him such a lashing. I felt pretty hurt after that and was really holding myself back from just hugging him and saying sorry. But i grit my teeth and told myself this has to be done for the sake of his growing up the right way. Kinda made me realize how much my dad must’ve hurt when he slapped me once. My dad thru-out my whole life has only raise his hand to me twice. That’s how much my dad spoils me. I even remember seeing my dad cry after that. At that time it made me feel even worse coz my dad has always been so nice to me. I was very young but that moment has always stayed with me.

I know it’s stupid but i think i really know how my dad felt now. I really felt like crying myself after i realize what i had done. I almost dashed to my son’s bed and given him the biggest hug ever. But alas… i waited till it was morning before i did that. I just had to hold it all in and tell myself i’m doing this for his own good. I  really hope it does coz i think to a certain extent i’ve turned out a decent human being because my parents did instill certain values that kept me on the straight and proper. I might not be the best of humans but i’d like to think that they taught me to have a conscience to whatever i do. If that is all i can teach my son… i think i would’ve done my parents proud. God please make Shane a good boy coz i don’t know how much more of this i can endure. It kills me each time… and this is only the first. *sigh*

Office blog

I’ve just been tasked by my new company to write about something pertaining to work… well since i haven’t posted anything here for awhile… please click here to read about it.

the fingers are weak… but the mind is willing

Yes yes yes… I’ve been back to the road of normalcy for quite a fair bit now. From my crazy and over the board working like a madman days at DraftFCB  to a more manageable level, I’ve still consistently ignore my blog. Bringing myself to blog for the sake of just voicing out my mind has proven hard to attend to that initially speculated. I have never been very good at translating my thoughts unto text unless I really need to get a point across to a person or situation. Using my skills as purely a recreational tool has proven to be futile in my finger’s view. However I will plod along and see how much more of this I will endure. Actually I do have a lot I would wanna say… I keep saying… boy I should talk about this in my blog just to fuck things up for the sake of well… muckin’ around. But once I sit down in front of the com…. I’m like… lazy la… I rather check out stuff for work or see what old friends I can discover or be discovered from facebook.

Besides, my life ain’t exactly full of innerestin’ stuff to talk about la. Come on…I’m sure more of you are sick of me gushing over my adorable son already. All I do here is tell  everyone got new pix of Shane… which reminds me I got a load of new ones I haven’t touched up and shit… damn… another tedious thing to do. I just find more interesting stuff to do with my time than put up pix or talk to myself in a fuckin’ blog. It’s like digital wanking… like I have to gratify myself on a blog or talk about what the fuck happens 2 me… tiu… lazy la… even this posting is a waste of space n time. But nevermind… need to be part of the culture to understand the market further… yadda yadda yadda self convincing shit.

Ok just to update you pple… yeah fuck… even in my hiatus I got hits… WTF?! Nothing to read here la wanker… see for wat. I quit my job end of September coz I had enuf la… work me like a dog and the politics… nip in the bud my ass… they bud nippers are the politic players… full of shit I tell you. But nevermind… it’s a game I will never understand or would even want to understand. Lining pockets is not something honorable I want to be part of. Me and my fuckin’ principles again… always making me get in trouble. I don’t play ball so I’m not on anyone’s side. Keeping as a neutral party is really harder than I thought. I’m too opinionated to not shove pple my views. So before I see more assholes getting their share of money they do not deserve I want out of that world. Figures why I’m still poor as shit and always looking of means to make more money to support the family… but only the legal n honorable way of coz.

Anyways in 6 hours of resigning from draft, I get a call from a company saying that they want me on board. This was the company that I was hoping to join from the slew of interviews I went for even. So it was a great sign to me that I did the right thing by leaving draft. I had a few other offers but it was back to the same shit hole world of agencies which was very reluctant to go back into if possible. However if come to the crunch I was thinking no choice for the sake of the family I might have to take the bullet. Luckily I didn’t have to and I found a place I actually like the people far more. Yes I made some friends at draft too and they are nice people but some are just so differently from what I want to be part of. What is the point of earning tons of money but end of the day you’re wondering when the next person’s going to stab you in the back to get ahead. Sorry la I’ve worked in a world where we all have each other’s back not stabbing it.

Enough trashing my ex company la… it had its moments… some really interesting projects but ultimately I saw a finite lifespan for the kind of things they were doing there. So I’m back to the total web environment and likeminded people. Sorry for borrowing the term but “I’m lovin’ it!” Please check out my new co’s website in my blogroll. They even spoke about my interview with them on their blog site. It’s nice to know that in this world there are pple who actually value family time like I do. I know everyone is saying careful… don’t let your guard down just yet. The world is a vicious place and all that shit. Then again I’ve always looked at the good side of things first till they prove me wrong. Why should I be any different now? I like how warm n welcoming everyone is… ok… mebbe not all la.. we’ve got some quiet ones which get overshadowed by my noisy and nosy personality like some *ahem* person who stalks my blog recently who works with me. LOL u know who you are… go 2 wife’s blog even… dahsyat betul. But this is exactly the environment I thrive in… being able to know them personally.. then seeing how I can work with them… then  we can do small but great things together.

Who gives a fuck that I launch a campaign that cost 10s of millions of ringgit. You’re only measured by the last campaign you did. So I rather not have the fake pat on the back but genuine people who does a job becoz it’s a job and then be able to hang out and talk about anything but work… this world has more to offer besides just well… work. I intend to explore that with my new team and who knows where it will take me… but at least here… I  can actually say I see a future far brighter and more positive than where I came from. We’re not perfect by far… but tell me an organization that is and I’ll tell you PR is behind it. Till my next lengthy and no point post… keep it real … real balanced.

I’m BACK! … kinda…

Hey everyone … i’m going to attempt updating this blog more… it’s been seriously ignored for quite sometime now (try 3 friggin’ months). As for my redemption, check out the much overdue pix of shane’s birthday in July… yeah… basically i quit my over demanding job and am just bumming around at home for the mo. Don’t fret… smart asses like me are out of a job for only 6 hours tops. Got an offer on the same day i handed in my letter… *phewwwwwwwwwwww* i was sweatin’ a bit for awhile there. Newayz… i think i’m gonna like this place more for the people i will be working with more than the $$$$ but i dare say the money ain’t too bad la… more details later… enjoy my comeback already!

note: no foul words were used for the inaugural return! fuck yeah! oops…. sheeeeiiittttt…..

Negligence

Yes i admit… this place is a wasteland… blame it on my bloody work… it’s an amazing time sucker. The only thing i can muster is a quick login to facebook. Heck you pple already know that… i have all of you tagged on facebook… cept mebbe juls… ooi… where are you bro? I still owing a lot of pple new pix on flickr. I’ve really had no time 2 do retouching and uploading la… sigh…. so bz bz bz… but son’s still cute as hell … so no worries there. Only sad part is that i see him a maximum of 30mins in a day until it’s the weekend…. a bit sad hor?

Finally new pix …

Ok i know la… very long no update flickr la… here is the first batch finally… more to come soon once i get the rest from Hazel from the b’day. That’s the only ones left to put up. I know a lotta pple have been bitchin’ about it… so go ok… more to come back next week… *cross fingers*

If things go on like this…

… i think only once a month i can make a post … bloody hell… wat have i gotten my shit into?!?!?! Sorry for the long delay especially for the pix…  i really have no time 2 do resizing and stuff. mucho gomeneh!

Back from the collective…. kinda…

Hey folks… i know it’s been fuckin’ long rite…. chibai la… wat to do… new job n all. Not to mention we are moving offices. Fuck man… just my luck… join new co only must move. Lucky i don’t have enough shit to drag around. Ironically if i had stayed on in my old co. i would still have to do packing… which honestly would’ve been worse as i had tons of bloody documentations n shit.

Ok fuck the boring stuff ya… let’s get to an update on what the fuck’s been happening.

1. My son’s getting cuter by the second… naughtier also.
2. I have a fuckin’ lump growing on my left arm.
3. I have not been getting any for a loooooooooooooooooooong time.
4. We got a 2nd car for audrey to chauffeur my son to n from the nanny.
5. I work late nowadays… hence the 4th point.
6. Went for my aunt’s 60th Birthday celebration and realise melayus & yeendians make poor lion dancers.
7. Shane is down with Rosolia or however the fuck u spell that shit.
8. Never EVER EVER go to KJMC GP period.
9. Coz the idiot gave a wrong diagnose of my son on a sunday coz no paedy and my son’s fake measles was suppressed by anti-biotics. Sigh… long story… let audrey cerita in her blog la… mine would consist of mostly fuckin’ idiot doctor anyways.
10. I realise i know more of the people in my new company that i should… and vendors… n clients… creepy shit man… fuckin’ so small meh the community.
11. Everyone mostly forgot my birthday… but fuck it… just make sure u remember my son’s or else… i fuckin’ gonna kick your asses… ya… all 4 of u.
12. Y the fuck do i get traffic when i have not been posting a single damn thing for the past month?
13. My new laptop given by company SUX!!!! so much restriction… cibai fuckin’ international policies and fuckall
14. Everyone is relatively nice and polite with me. As usuals i need to beat the ladies off with a stick…. HAHahaHAHAHah … fuck i soiled myself on that one.
15. Yeen’s coming back soon… can’t wait to toss her my son n say… fuckin’ make one so my kid can bully yours.
16. Met up with the co-owner of nuffnang for work… pretty impressive shit this guy… he’s like a younger version of me… but more successful… lol. Ok ok… i m better with the ladies… but come on…. lol … damn… i soiled meeself again… HAhAHAHahah …
17. Notice a pattern of insanity?? I knew there was a reason why i never wanted 2 join agency… nia ma… no life man… no wonder i not getting point 3 la!
18. I wonder if i will qualify for an account with nuffnang… hey… in a month i could like pay … for a sweet or something. All 4 of u better visit more ok… get my hits to 20 can ah? lol!!

Ok folks… i dun wanna keep putting numbers next to my postings anymore… cibai hard ok… just letting everyone know i’m good… miss a lotta pple in general… i feel that i have no time anymore…. i tot as i grow older… i would have more time 2 myself… apparently in agency… i fuckin’ loose more of it. Oh … another thing… my wife made me super proud of her… she was offered a job promo… but she turned it down… due to her commitment to the family. I am so touched with how much she is sacrificing for me to really plow on in my new career. I tell you… cannot find already wife like this… that’s y ladies… i cannot look at u all… u all nothing compared to my wife… she is the best man… fuckin’ luckiest guy in the world i am.

Now darling… praise lioa… u better give it up NOW!

 ps. pix will be updated soon la har…. still need to settle down a bit…then i will post the slew of pix all stuck on my sd-card.

later folks… keep coming in n give me more impressions… i really want that sweet ok.

Preoccupied

Won’t be posting much due to my server getting back online… yup u heard me.. i’m back to my torrenting days again…. gawd it’s good 2 be back!

Gates vs. Jobs

It’s a known fact that i’m a huge ass mircosoft fan and i hate apple with every fiber in my body. But nothing makes my day more than when someone … namely wired magazine’s article (thanx lokes 4 the link) about how the impression of gates has always been how cut throat and monopolizing he has been in pushing his products into the mainstream. while everyone garners utter praise and worship to jobs for being the artistic, cultured, classy guy everyone goes misty eyed over to have a grande with.

well gates might not be much in the looks and dressing department but it takes a lot for him to give almost all his wealth to charity and even making warren buffet follow suit in this regard. while jobs has done nothing but be a tru bred capitalist that only wants to amass wealth upon wealth for his own pretentious interests. i mean if you really wanna point it out… that is how it is. that my friends is NOT impression but reality.

sadly gates is not so dynamic in the sense of selling himself as the cool guy everyone wants to hang out with but more of an enabler of technology. if i were to put things into perspective, what has jobs created that has really made a cultural shift globally, yes the i-rather-pay-a-premium-to-fit-in iPod has gripped the world by storm. what does it do? ooh… listen to music … wow… fuckin’ awesome. how bout windows? XP? vista? ooh.. it’s nothing… just a operating system that allows people to experience entertainment, balance accounts, make money, educate, etc … yes… sure everyone will mention OH-ASS-TEN but come on… the comparison is like the Zune against the iPod … now tell me which 1 is an enabler of technology?

not to mention how jobs has not so humbly acknowledge that the Intel platform is far superior than the crap they were on. don’t u mac idiots realize that you are all suckers of a branding exercise? i have to praise jobs tho that he can convince so many that his products are far superior than others while still acknowledging that technologically wise he is like light years behinds. all the workings of the amazing spindoctor mr job.

it’s like this in my eyes… gates while might not be a saint… is just pushing technological boundaries… while jobs is just trying to make sure he makes a killing while making sure u agree only his designs are the coolest looking… did i mention he didn’t design shit? now whose the dumbass.

I see gates & jobs like the world & america. the world knows that watever america is doing is only in it’s own interest for and nothing more, while the world just wants to ensure that there is balance and equality being uphold. you all might not agree i’m sure seeing as you guys most likely own an ipod… hey even i did… ok not me but audrey… but boy m i glad it got stolen with the car… coz honestly… it was the most annoying piece of crapped i had the misfortune of owning for a period of time…. fuck itunes… fuck annoying DRMs!

I know its a very 1 track mind of me to say this but hell… i <3 Microsoft … can’t i speak like one?